Santorini

Santorini

Sunday, February 4, 2018

感谢你 18岁的我


致18岁的你
谢谢你在那一年
尝试了不一样的自己
认识了不一样的人
过上了不一样的生活
很感谢你当时的每个决定
虽然不都正确 但我依然庆幸
感谢你勇敢的踏上了新的土地
感谢你学会了照顾自己
感谢你不停地接受新的人事物
感谢你坚强的走过了一切
即使当时的你是多么的不容易
从年初的打工 到拿成绩 然后申请奖学金
再到后来的决定接受哪个奖学金
最后来到法国以及在法国总总的一切
还有12月4号那一天
你真的很坚强 也很勇敢
即使不完美 偶尔也懦弱寂寞
但你已经做得很好了
你很棒
虽然被逼着突然长大
却没有迷失自我
18岁的你 我为你而感到骄傲
28岁的我 依然不完美
虽然做的决定或许依然不都正确
但我希望 38岁的她 会感谢我做的一切
18岁的你 谢谢
28岁的我 加油
38岁的她 等着

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Saturday, March 21, 2015

So I type, again. And better, I cook, too

So here I am, again.
Couldn't get a job and getting bored alone in the house in daytime, I was thinking of what should I do to spare my time.
Many friends left Toulouse, for their internship or for their job.

I have been doing nothing since I last came back from Malaysia, almost 2 months since.
My boyfriend bought me a camera when I came back, nothing professional though, since I'm still a beginner, and other dslr cameras are quite expensive, for us, at least.

So I have been thinking for weeks, what should I do to make the time valuable.

So I took classes, to learn Hadoop, but I gave up after taking the introduction of Hadoop and the mapreduce courses because I realised that, with my laptop, I can't really practice it.
So I watched videos, to learn an interactive data visualization software, Tableau.

To be frank, they didn't really interest me, except the introductions, because I'm not sure if I'm going to use these softwares in the future. Seriously, the life is more boring than ever when you don't know what person will you be, what you need to learn, what you really want, and what you need.

I was literally LOST.

And then, I started to think (or rather tried hard to reflect of) what I like to do. And suddenly something popped out, COOKING. Ya, I remembered once I had wanted to be a chef (and I still think that I will be in the future. Don't laugh at me!).
So I started to cook, for my boy and for my own pleasure.

Thus, I started cooking, only fancy things though, with the recipes I found on internet, oriental and western. Foods that I had never tried to cook before. I had always did bakings like cheesecakes, brownies, yogurt cakes, cookies, pear chocolat cakes, tarts, &c. &c. But for cooking, I had always cooked what I already knew how to cook.

I made stewed beef, pastas, lasagnas, beef steak (trust me, it's not as easy as what you think when it come to controlling the cooking degrees),and some french dishes. Then I cooked some honey-roasted porc, char siew, cantonese roasted duck, claypot rice, pickled chinese cabbage with porc 酸菜扣肉, and some other chinese dishes.

Then I thought, why don't I capture these dishes with my camera?

Without professional skills, the photos are not as good as what I wanted they to be.

One day my bf bought us an entire duck. I learned how to cook magret de canard. Again, it's not easy, especially to control the cooking degree. My bf and I like the duck to be cooked with still a little bit red in the middle of the magret. ( they is no such best cooking degree, for duck, so for beef. It depends on how you like to eat). Since I couldn't cut it all the times to check if it's done, I have followed the advices on the internet, saying to make the skin crunchy by cooking the salt-and-peppers seasoned duck breast on a really hot pan for 5 minutes each side then 10 minutes in the oven with 200 degree celcius. Then I have prepared a simple sauce with balsamic vinegar. With the duck breast, I cooked some simple seasoned quinoa and salades. I didn't want to make something which might influence the taste of the duck breast. I like its own taste.


So it looked like this


We completed the meal with a bottle of wine. Nothing expensive though. A haut medoc 2011 from bordeaux. They went quite well along.

Then we bought a whole chicken. I had so many ideas with the chicken, and first came in my mind, the white chicken rice. I have always loved the boiled chicken, for both its taste and its texture. I knew it's not that easy to make it, to have it cooked and tender, without making it dry. So I kept looking of different advices online. 
Here what I have done. I put ginger slices, chopped green onions and the chicken in a pot of water, entire covering the chicken and boiled it after putting the lid on. 1 minute after it's boiled, I turned off the hob, without removing the pot nor the lid. After 5 minutes waiting, I remove the chicken and colded it with tap water ( have in mind that the tap water here is cold, I didn't need iced-water.) When it's entirely cold, I put it again in the pot,  boiled it again for 3 minutes this time (my chicken is quite small, so I don't need to cook long), and waited for 10 minutes with the hob off. 
While waiting, I prepared a sauce with soy sauce, sesame oil, oyster sauce, sweet soy sauce, peppers and the chicken soup.
Again, I colded the chicken down and cut it into small pieces. Surprisingly, it's so easy to cut it. 
I then use the chicken oil and chicken soup to cook the rice.
The rice looked perfectly cooked with the oil. And it's indeed tasty.



Looks delicious huh?
I think I had over cooked it, by waiting 10 minutes at the last step, because my chicken is pretty small. Hmm, will try 5 minutes next time. My bf was surprised that the breasts are not dry at all, but I had tasted better. Will try again next time.

So here come the problem, I had a pot of chicken soup. What should I do with it? Knowing that there is no more chicken, so it would be too plain to put in vegetables and make it a soup. Then I remembered something I loved to eat, especially when I was sick. Ta da, chicken porridge, with some mushrooms and eggs.

A small tip for the porridge: put the washed rice to the fridge the night before you cook the porridge, it will make the porridge like mine--sticky and thick.

Voila, what I cooked this week. Like what I said at the beginning, nothing difficult, only what I like. I love the original taste of ingredients.=)



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Wednesday, September 11, 2013

do you still remember? 你还记得吗?

There was a place, where I could note what i had done.
It was this place, where I could moan how much i wanted.
It was still this place, where I can review something i have already forgotten.

It was a period, when I wrote down everything i had done and every sentiment i had.
It was this period, when I wanted so much to tell the world what was in my thinking.
It was still this period, when I have grown up the most.

But in few days, this place will be closed, this period will be forgotten.
Today, i have decided to read every post i have written and every comment i've got.
I could back up everything but I'm not going to do this.
The blog is too saddening, too naive and too much of moanings.

那里有我写给排球队的信,记载着我第一次看到雪的感动,那些无数想家的寒冷夜晚,第一次滑雪的激动,第一次溜冰的无奈,第一次在外地过生日和新年的悲哀与幸福,那些心理的挣扎,那些一同走过的朋友,那些读过的书,那几段逝去的恋情,还有那位英年早逝的二哥。

突然发现,有很多的事情已从我的记忆中消失。
是我善忘吗?还是我没真正在意过?又或是我根本不愿再想起?
人是否都如此?
有好多曾经觉得很重要的事,如今却忘了。
那,我曾经的在意又是为了什么?

今天的你,又在意了什么?
明天的你,还会记得吗?

曾经觉得我很重要的你,如今还记得我吗?

人在不同的阶段总有不同的人事物陪伴着。
来来往往,你能真正抓住的有几个?你还记得的有那些?

我曾经写过:

梦中 我失去了你
梦醒 我依然没拥有你
梦中 爱情走了
梦醒 爱没来过

该留在梦中 或快些清醒
似乎已不再有分别

梦里梦外 你都不是我的。

可是,有谁可以真正拥有一个人?
如今的我不是不相信人与人的感情,我只是变得实际了一些

这段时间我长大了一些,成熟了一些,也老了一些。
开始学会不是每件事都要向别人交代,虽然还有待加强
开始明白不是每个人都在乎你所说、所想的一切
原本藏不住秘密的我,开始也有了属于自己的小小世界。
当然大多时候会忘记,可是也没什么不好的,不是吗?
或许你会感叹,现实是多么的残酷,足以让一个天真的女孩,变成一个烦心的女人。
我不怨曾经发生的总总,毕竟上天让我长大了

曾经我这样写过:
秋天来了
在这个季节,风吹着叶子
有叶子的陪伴,
风 不孤单。
下个季节,叶子走了,
孤单的风 有谁陪伴?
你走了,孤单的我又有谁陪伴?

如果可以,我宁愿选择,
上个季节 没有来。

可是现在的我即使一个人也不觉得孤单,虽然还是害怕一个人宁静的夜晚。
现在的我很庆幸上个季节曾来过,即使那个季节逼迫我长大。
可是
回忆终究属于昨天,不适合留给明天。
该忘记的,即使记得也只剩惆怅。
就它们走吧!我那逝去的青春,我那长大的无奈,我那远离的天真。
今晚就当作为回忆哀悼,让那些年的情绪淹没吧!




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Wednesday, October 3, 2012

again

i know the endless separations are parts of our life,I know every separation means another beginning in our life.but i still cant help being emo and sad every time i look at the back of someone and wonder when will we see each other again. Will we still be the same? will we need to find some topics to discuss about so that we won't be awkward? Will I be our 'hi-bye' friend or even a stranger?

The room..where i've said a few times of 'goodbye and goodluck'
The corridor..where i've heard the sound of the heavy footsteps heading to an uncertain future.
The door..where i was able to have a last glance at the ones who were heading to the lift.
The bed..where I've let the long hidden tears to get out from my painful eyes.
How many times i told myself to be proud of them
How many times i told myself don't be sad.
How many times i told myself it's ok.
How many times i felt my cheeks were wet with tears.
Tears will stop dropping,life must keep going.we will meet again,the day it should be.
Make your own way and i will be here supporting you.
our roads will cross again one day just like how they crossed when we first met.


The cold night, the sick boyfriend, the naughty cat, the only left, emo me....
'baby,it's ok.i understand your feeling.'
'no,u don't.the feeling of losing a family and you dont know where to go when u'r lost.'


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Thursday, December 29, 2011

holiday began with a weekend in Barcelona

 it was a rainy day in toulouse,but a sunny day in barcelona.
we departed about 11 o'clock in the morning and we reached there at about 2pm.Although it's a sunny day,it was still cold,well,we were at the end of autumn.


after having a picnic lunch in the hostel,we went to the town.

it was crowded since there was x'mas soon,everyone was out to buy presents.

were we lost??

it was so tempting.. but since it was so cold,we decided not to eat ice-cream

 yummy yummy!are u tempted too?
 we went to the cathedral (accidentally,since we wanted to go to sangrada familia and we did a mistake)
we had a 'teatime' at 7pm in a cafe and i had a really good hot chocolat (no photos since aurelie is the one who took those photos,may be ll upload again when i see here)
 after few hours of walking,we found a nice restaurant for a dinner.of course,we took a menu of tapas!
 patatas bravas,although i know it's just fried potatoes but still,i love it
 aubergine (it's the 1st time i tried,it was so delicious,the aubergine was so sweet,and the spices they used didn't make the aubergine lose its original taste)
fried chicken(actually it was not that special)
lentils (it didn't look nice but it did really taste good!)  
 meatballs (well,u know what is meatball)
after the dinner we went to a bar with our friend,nicolas,who is studying in barcelona.
we drank some nice sangria and we went back to hostel at about 1am.this is the end of the 1st day.

the next day,we were like all the tourists.
we went to parc de joan miro, botanic parc.....

a lunch in a small restaurant,it's difficult to find a restaurant on sunday

a nice picture taken in the parc de guell
we went to sangrada familia,we took a dinner,i had a paella and we went back to hostel since i needed to wake up early in the morning for my flight.
well,we did play cards before going to bed.


my last meal in barcelona,a nice breakfast in hostel
this is the end of my weekend in barcelona.
holiday continued in karlsruhe,germany


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Monday, October 17, 2011

梁静茹-情歌 cover

we actually practiced this song for spectacle de semaine internationale (performance of international's week).but i can't find the video for the moment,so i post this cover 1st=)



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Friday, September 2, 2011

离别

离别总是感伤
一个人整理行李
一个人收拾情绪
然后
一个人搭上飞机
不想走  其实很想留

还有该负的责任
在那个远方
背着大家的期望
走向自己的梦想

再见了
明年的大家又是怎么样?
再会了
明年的你还会不会在这个地方?
会不会又有哪个他离开我们的家乡?

长大了发现
原来生活没那么简单
原来人没想像中那么坚强
思念与不舍只能留在心上
我    一个人飘向远方。


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Tuesday, May 24, 2011

5 more to go!!!!!

aja aja!!!!5 more exams to go...
5 in the same week..hmm..need to find a strategy to study then!


since when i'm scared of this kind of exams???i've changed...

ganbatte!!!!!!!!

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Sunday, May 22, 2011

加油!!!

你能的!两个星期一定能读完!然后就放假了!!加油啊!!!
我不要补考。。。。
你不是笨蛋,两个星期一定够的!加油啦!!!!决不放弃!


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Tuesday, May 10, 2011

是世界变了还是我太天真?

是世界变了吗?为什么校园罢凌会是新闻首页?
是现在的社会生病了?还是一直都是这样?
我很庆幸当年的我从没遇过或见过这种事。
我很庆幸当年的我天真的以为再怎么不喜欢一个人,不理他就好了。
我很庆幸我的学生生涯没有类似的污点。
欺负别人的学生,你们是怎么了?是生病了吗?还是疯了?
乱骂人的观众,你们又是怎么了?不知道谁是罪魁祸首就不要乱骂人。




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