leaving..athens,here i come.

going to leave in half an hour..

the feeling is kinda hard to be described.

i feel like wanna leave this place as soon as possible

but on the same time,i feel heavy to leave..

dunno y..

when the time comes,feel like it's better to stay here.

m i mad?

well..not going to think so much..

just leave here.

try to enjoy myself as much as possible!

don't miss me guys!

ll come back in 1 week.

bye!

athens,here i come!!!

izit something to do with me?!

today,when i open my window,i saw loads of smokes.
i saw many firemen outside the building in front of me..
i saw fire in my friend's room.
but i saw no body inside.
hence,i thought everyone was out of the building,n i went to class.
in the class,my friends told me that they couldn't find a friend who's staying in the room.
i asked God to save him..
but apparently,He didn't listen to me.
My friend passed away..


I know him through a friend,he is her classmate.
i still remember the 1st we met is when i went shopping with my friend,n she bring him along.
i still remember i was fined quite loads of money due to the problem of my metro card.
he helped me to argue with the controller.
although it makes no changes after that,i told myself that he is a kind guy.
he invited me to eat with them,but i couldn't then i promised him that i ll make him a malaysian dinner the next week.
but i didn't manage to do that due to something happened to another friend.
then i told him next time.
after that we promised him few times again,n we failed to make it again..
n finally i can't make it anymore..
he played rugby n i played volleyball on monday.every monday we ll play with each other..but now..i wont hv chance to play with him anymore.
i wont hv chance to have a drink with him n see his cute red face anymore..
btw..
things happened is happened.
i know that u wont like to see us cry for u..
i just wanna tell u that i'm glad that u r my friend..
i'm lucky enough to know u coz u're really really a kind person.
the promise i hv made,i ll make it in the next life,if i'm lucky enough to know u again.
ll miss u always..





he is the 3rd friend of mine who passed away in this year..
i wonder what happened to me this year..
everything goes wrong..

mess

finally,nothing went like what i had planned
finally,everything messed up,once again.
i wonder why i just can't have a simple life?
i'm just a simple girl.
i don't need a special life!
i don't want to be special,because i know,no matter how simple u r,the person who loves u will feel that u're special
when u're special,this will make the person confuse,n u too..
huuuuuu!!!
stop thinking about love!
my heart has 3 doors:
the 1st one is always opened for my family and relatives,
the 2nd one..hmm..i ll say i open it often as it's for my friends
the 3rd one was seldom opened but now,it's closed for lover.
so,i'm single but not available now^^
as for my studies..
i have difficulty of being hardworking
i have no passion,this is the worst thing because i'm always not in study mood
got some bad results such as thermo and systeme.
i'm scared that i ll fail again..
however,these r not efficient enough to make me study..
as for my health...ha ha!
my ankle sprained..due to my stupidness
i was too tired because i slept at 3 am in the morning and woke up at 7.30 am and i was rushing too
that's y,i didn't see the last step of the staircase and suddenly,'bang'--i fell down.
i thought it was nothing coz i didn't wear high heel,n i didn't really feel pain.
therefore,i told everyone that i'm ok.
yet,when i tried to walk,i know something happened to my ankle..
luckily leo and laurent were there and brought me to see the nurse.
damn stupid huh?
this is the 1st time my ankle sprained when i don't play volleyball.
n this is also the 1st time in france.
i remember the last time,my ankle had sprained few days before state u-18 volleyball tournament 2007.
i was so sad because i couldn't play few matches in the beginning.
n i tried to move n run so that i could recover earlier even though it was really painful
n finally,i played in semi-final n final.
i was so happy until i forgot about the pain.
besides,my family and friends helped me a lot!
they fetched me to here and there,papa brought me to see a chinese doctor...
this time i'm alone.
but i'm lucky though,becoz i hv friends who were ready to give me a hand.
i appreciate it..very very much!






i watched a Taiwanese series today and the guy said:"true love's not true,'prince and princess live together happily ever after' appears only in fairy-tails.
but i beliefs,there is always someone that u love the most n loves u the most.
may be u wont be together forever,but u know,no matter what,ur hearts ll always be together
n i always belief this,because i know the heart of belief ll become a power...
我相信，因为相信的心会变成力量。

happy chinese new year~~gongxifacai!!

today is the 1st day of cny!i can imagine how happy my friends n family who r at home r.
i'm not at home,yet i'm not sad though.
well,i admit that i miss home,i miss my family n friends much more then ever i had in the year.
however,i'm not sad bcoz i had a celebration with my seniors yesterday n going to have another 1 next weekend!
yesterday,we cooked loads of malaysian's food!got bah kut teh,hong shao rou,yam rice,sushi,agar-agar,zhap cai,white carrot's soup,meat ball,tao fu,mu er tong shui,and roasted duck!!
next week,we gonna hv steamboat and lao sheng!
of course it's not as good n as fun as at home,but it's already good enuf for those who staying abroad.
so i think,i'm lucky enuf..
在此，我祝福大家：
恭喜发财，
万事如意，
快乐安康，
学业猛进。
wish u all the best!
miss.....^^

not more teenager!!

wow!i'm officially 20!!!!!!!
should i say i'm old d?nonono!!!i'm mature!!!=P
well..i had alot of fun yesterday night with malaysians!
they made a party for me n yogesh(my 'twin')
i ate bihun,pizza,chips,and we drank alot!
i drank 2 shots of tequila,2 glasses of rose wine,2 glasses of red wine,and 1 glass of apple,a little bit of lychit!gosh!!i wonder since when i can drink so much n dun get drunk at all!
well..i kept drinking alcohol this few days.
i drank some white wine on thursday n a lot a lot on friday due to the party in my engineering school!(some sangria,vodka,rhum...,n i didn't get drunk neither!)
we had 3 cakes(1 for me,1 for yogesh n 1 for haikal)(1 cake made from lavanya,1 from pei xin n 1 from carrefour)
after went back to insa,we drank a bit again..after that i went back to my room n studied until 3.30am.
today i woke up at 12pm n checked my mail
guess what?i got 100++emails from facebook!!thz thz thz~
i dunno what to say except thz~
how wish i can celebrate with everyone.
but well..i can't even celebrate with my friends in toulouse,i mean those french,coz we r having 2 exams tmr!how 'lucky' m i!
well..wish i can do well tmr!
thkz everyone!love yea~
muack!!

need to continue my revision d..=/

what a shocking day

wow!!!finally i'm home n no more 'surprise'(i wish)
today morning,i hv learned about a death of a friend,kamal.
he was learning french with us during 3 months n was staying in the same hostel with us.
i was so shocked and couldn't concentrate in the class.
till now,i still dunno wat happened...
then i got another 'surprise' before break time.
i failed the exam that i was so confident in!!
i juz cant believe it!
i thought i managed to solve those questions,but apparently,i was wrong!
then i asked teacher,he told me that it's because of i didn't write any sentence,he didn't understand so he didn't gv mark.
wth!!!
i failed 3 subjects adi!!!i can oni fail 4 subjects in a year..but don't worry,i hv found the passion that i had when i was preparing for spm.
if i fail again after i put those afford,dat means i'm not suitable to be an engineer!!or i'm juz too stupid!

well..i'm so tired after all this.yet,i need to study..
i want to be better no matter what!!!!!
ganbatte neh!!!!
aja aja fighting!!

hmm..i ll rest for awhile though..i'm so tired now..even too tired to breath...
may everyone pray hard for me...
and kamal,may u rest in peace..

i just wanna keep u as a friend

after all,i would like to keep u as a friend.

i don't know how hard ll it be,i don't know how long ll it take,so that we wont feel strange when we talk.

but i would like to hv u as a friend.

because for me,u r kind as friend^^

sincerely,as friend!hope that our friendship wont end like this.

浮板

如果人生是大海，
那我是刚抓到浮板的落难者。
当然我会想得到一块更大的浮板
可是现在，我一眼望去，似乎只有这块浮板
我想让它带我到我想去的那个地方。

last day in 2009

last day in 2009,what r u all doing?
hmm..i woke up at 10am then on my lappy checked mail,bought some friends in facebook=P
eating some cereals as 'brunch'(breakfast+lunch) coz i din go shopping yet.
going to continue cleaning my room,might go to town to buy a new mobile phone,might not..
going to jog later.wish to jog with some chinese friends but everyone is not here.so i'm going to jog alone.
5pm,(12am malaysia time zone),i'm gonna count down in my room
12am,again,i'm gonna count down in my room.

2009,a complicated year.again,a lot of changes.
happiness is as much as sadness.
i still remember when i wrote summary for 2008,i was really sad.coz i lost a lovely cousin on december.
this year,i'm neither sad nor happy.
btw,i should be happy that i still can breath.^^
i'm still happy that many ppl care of me.i really appreciate it.
for my family,wish u all healthy owes and happy owes!
for those who were couple with me,thanks for giving me some joyful period.again,i appreciate it.
for my friends,all the best and miss u all.wish to meet u all as soon as possible!
for me,study hard!!!it's enuf of playing n relaxing!1 and a half years of relaxing..it's time to stop it n change it!

everyone!!!!happy new year!!!wish u all the best in 2010!!!!!muackkkkkksssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss

weekend~

huh huh~~it's weekend again!
i had a lot of problems during this week
u know,my dad's in hospital,problems with my friends,studies problems,problems with him....
well..just forget about it.
besides all these,i enjoyed the week as well.
i watched twilight 2 with ridhuan.it's a really good film,but some parts are quite violent.don't u think so?
i had a match on wednesday.we won it.
i was so happy although i was not in the mood(because my dad admitted in hospital on wednesday.)
i ran 10 mins+10 mins+10 mins+40 mins non-stop during the sport class.(long time din run d)
hmm..it's getting colder and colder now.
started wearing trousers which i hate to wear.

now..i have a new problem,that is,i'm going to have exam next monday and i've not yet done my revision

actually,i write this article today because last year 4th december 2008,my cousin died.
i wish that he rests in peace,and 'live' happily in another world.
2nd bro,i miss u so much!!!